Notice how when we have no commitment to a bigger ideal, the little things matter? That is because there is nothing left when you reach that point. We are designed to be committed to ideas, without that, the fiber of our being and thought unravels.

I think we focus on the wrong thing in relationships. We focus so much on what we are to do, how to pursue, how to have a date, what to do what to do? These are good questions and good things, but I think they are bad because we miss an entire question that begs an answer; what is a relationship? Like our view of ourselves, it all flows from who we are. What we do flows from who we are. In the same light, I think relationships and what we do in them flows from what a relationship is. You cannot know why we do something or why our actions follow a certien way unless we understand what we are. In the same light, how can we know what to do in a relationship if we have no understanding of what it even is? Until we have at least a glimpse of what a relationship is, we will never know what to do or how to act. You can never know how to act until you understand what it is you are acting on.

When the mummers die
and all is quiet
we find our silence
and see where our skeletons lie.

Adam was allowed to know a woman, since one was not created, for years and year as he named the animals. Moses even wrote that adam looked for someone to be a companion with, but there was no one who fit. Adam knew the longing and desire for a wife, a lover, a helpmeet. Adam would have longed and had the longing met. Adam would have respected above all else eve, he would have loved to no end, looked for everything to please and love her. That is something we lose as a society. Porn, players, and sleezy guys all are emotional distortions of something that was so beautiful and it has all gone ere now.

There comes a point where we find that we do not want to know what is right. We know, but we hide out conscience. I find that I have been hiding myself in the business of my life. I hide myself in good things, I hide myself in my abilities, my thoughts, my actions. I show myself off to be a good person, I show myself to be a hero to some. In all reality I am a good person to some people, but in the end, we all eventually are reminded of the skeletons in our closest.

We make ourselves busy, we find ourselves in other people’s business, we gossip, we work, we play, all this just to hide our darkness. The beautiful thing about the light is that it gets rid of the darkness, but we have to be willing to find what is hidden right now. Eventually we lose the choice to willing find what is in our darkness and we find them unprepared to deal with it.

The quietness is painful, since we all find what we want hidden.

“ In repentance and rest is your salvation,
In quietness and trust is your strength,
But you would have none of it.”

Isaiah 30:15

it is much easier to face something when it is not your choice. like being pushed instead of jumping, like shooting yourself instead of being shot.

This makes the reasoning of why things happen in life make so much more sense. i doubt we would ever face any of the problems in our life unless we were compelled to by circumstances.

Have you ever noticed that our greatest strengths seem to open up our essence to our greatest weakness?

Look at your weaknesses, all of them stem from your strengths.