We tend not to notice something until either we put in the middle of something that is starkly contrasted or loose it completely. As i was sitting in the parking lot garden at work, i look down and see a cigarette butt filled parking lot with screaming kids. I look up, and i see a placid sky. i look down and i see people making out, fighting, and attempting to use stock cars as racers around a parking lot. i look up, and there's a placid sky. There is a gift of the peace in the placid sky. The interesting thing is that we always trade even noticing that peace for something. perhaps tomorrow it'll be to try and validate myself with to the person next to me, perhaps it will be to hopelessly indulge my ego. I think the desire for validation and peace doesn't mean that we will necessarily obtain it, but that proves the existence of it.

Realizations have their limits. Our insensate questions of why, to gather more information, fueled by emotion and pain. The answers we're seeking come after our healing.