it is only when i think i have control that i really realize i have none. it is only when i think i have a niche that i realize how displaced and disorderly the world is. it is only when i think i am wise that i realize i am a fool.

these are such amazing things, since i am hopeless without the grace and redemption i am given, but it is such a wave of reality i never see when i realize just how far this goes.