Acts 4:
32 All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of their possessions was their own, but they shared everything they had. 33 With great power the apostles continued to testify to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus. And God’s grace was so powerfully at work in them all 34 that there were no needy persons among them. For from time to time those who owned land or houses sold them, brought the money from the sales 35 and put it at the apostles’ feet, and it was distributed to anyone who had need.

There is something about being able to give up what you have for an illogical purpose when you stare at numbers blankly. when i am jobless, i am greedy. when i have little i want more and say i will give more when i have more, but for now, i can't give since i don't have enough. i had 60 dollars to my name and that was enough to carry me through until i got another job. this verse has been on my mind since i lost my job and wasn't giving like i used to. well, um, a friend needed 60 dollars to finish his fund raising for going to hati to work with people trying to leave voodoo practicing. i just gave away my last 60 dollars.

this is more of a prayer than a post. God, i know you have a plan, i know you work in all things. please open up a job soon. i haven't been giving like you have asked of me, but father, i want to change that. please give me the ability to give and the ability to earn money and things to give.