I have struggled with depression since i was a kid. I am starting to credit it almost as a blessing. recently, struggling with lonleyness and depression has been a source of agony that has pushed me to constant prayer. the relationship with jesus that has been busting forth is absolutely astounding. This depression is driving me away from my constant longing to be independent and forcing me to become completely depended on my father, like a child. i am starting to love this i am not in control thing.